Hard day

Yesterday as I sat with all of my material and stared, I just started to cry. I felt so uninspired, so uncreative. I sat and wondered how does anyone do this? How do they get creative, or organized for that matter. It was the simple problem of not having a starting point.

After some time of staring at the material, I googled "unit plan help" and got a list of questions that I began to answer so that I may begin mapping out my plan. I don't consider myself a big planner. I think that is the hardest part of becoming a teacher, planning. I think it will be a huge hurtle to get over. But hopefully I do get over it.

I met today with a math teacher, and after he looked over what I had, I started to realize that I do have some good ideas. My neighbor brought me her worksamples and I have an electronic one from my teacher so that I can look at them and begin to have a base as to where to start.

I am sick today, and tired, and all of this has lead to me feeling overly critical of myself and overly stressed about where I think I should be with all of this. I hope that as I string all the pieces together, I can make something that I am proud of.